Years passed by, if I’m not mistaken beginning of year 2006, many thoughts easily upset me. My question is why now? Why at the age of 47? I suppose to be wiser at this age. The upset effects my emotion; withdrawal, self blame, self-pity, blames people, sick, depressed, conflict with friends, and my daily life upside-down. Most of the things I did were wrong… Emotion has destroyed my objectivity, and, failing to see clearly, I have made terrible errors of judgment……….. That time I realized what is going on, I wanted to correct the whole situation but I keeping make a mistake. I look like bad women (this is how I feel that moment). Everyone, especially my closet friends are so fascinated with what went wrong with me and I supposed they fail to see what is going wrong with me. Some closet friends, which I have conflict that time give way to resolve the conflict. They accepted me as I am that time with a big questionnaire. Thank you my dear friends. Some friends fail to accept because I’m new to them. I should thank this group of friends because they make me think and find out what causes the changes. Dear friends, can anybody recall some of the incidents which I missed at this moment. Your inputs are welcome and I’m open for any ideas. That all I can recall for the moment. I should continue from time to time and make sure the flow of past experiences is smoothly present. My main intention writing about my last three years “hard time” and scary experiences is mainly for sharing. I don’t mean to find any fault of my friends; this is only my own experiences. I suppose presently I’m quite “ ……….. “, Poh Choo, help me to fill in the blank. The clear mind makes me wanted to share to my dearest friends. Bye2. Pardon me if I used wrong terms, words and worst part is my grammar. I’m still learning to write in English. Kalau Bahasa Malaysia “sap sap sui lah”. Jac
everyone learn from mistake and thank God, the hardship make us stronger and even better man. learning is a life long process, it will end by the day you were 6 foot under the earth. why scare to make mistake and stop yourself from growing to be wiser? accepting everything with open mind and open arms, will bear you fruit of true friendships and knowledge. i am not wise as Solomon but i am willing to share what i had learned too. those who walked along with you through the bad and good times are those that you should appreciate in your heart, they are the true angels revolving you. let the passed experiences be a mirror for yourself to prevent the future occurrence of same history. i am using the blog to express my emotion and thoughts, to share my feeling and excitement of life with those i treasured. in directly i can improve my English as well, no one borne perfect, right? it is a one stone two birds strategy. sometimes things are nice to hear but not to say, and blogging is one of the best channel to convey the message to those we love and care but we dare not speak the truth, worrying that the saying will offense the feeling. we try not to prejudice anyone and anything, but letting others to flow with our wave of emotion's tide is a good way to let others' comprehend what is playing in our mind regarding certain issues that we were not expressly dictate to others at any material time. as i said before in my entries, only after you went through the trough, then you will appreciate the beauty of crest. the troubles we went through before enable us to relish and savor what we have at the moment and treasure everything and everyone we having now, isn't it great? history should be treated as a lesson, not a fetter. it is useless to chain or lock or punish yourself for what you had done. that is no way we can return the passed time. time is not a tape, cannot be rewind or forward. let the past be the cornerstone to build the foundation for future, what you reap is what you sow, just as you dictated to me before, "only your thought can upset you", contrary, isn't it means "only your thought can uphold you" as well? positive thinking will build a positive characteristics and positive result, and vice versa. hopefully i can learn a rope from you through your blog, and let's fill in the blank with each others' support and courage.
This is message from Saw Hoon, she is learning how to post comment in my blog..keep learning. Marcusnhl, being an IT expert, can you give her some tips.
May Basket From Chicken Soup for the Soul: Moms Know Best
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.... Cor. 13:4-5
"Hey, do you know what? Today is May Day!" my sister announced. "Do you remember the May Day baskets we used to make with colored paper and paste?"
Childhood memories and warm feelings engulfed me as I recalled that my sisters and I would run around our neighborhood delivering the not-so-perfect baskets brimming with spring flowers. We would place the handmade treasures on a doorstep, knock on the door, then scurry away as fast as our legs could carry us. It was delightful to peer around a bush and watch our friends open their doors and pick up the colorful gift, wondering who had left it out for them.
I distinctly remember the May Day of the year that I was in fifth grade. That year I was faced with a challenge involving one of my dearest friends. She lived right across the road from our family, and we had walked together to school nearly every day since first grade.
Pam was a year older than I, and her interests were starting to change from the interests that we had shared together. A new family had recently moved into our small town, and Pam was spending more and more time at their house. I felt hurt and left out.
When my mother asked me if I was going to take a May Day basket to Pam's house, I responded angrily, "Absolutely not!" My mom stopped what she was doing, knelt down and held me in her arms. She told me not to worry, that I would have many other friends throughout my lifetime.
"But Pam was my very best friend ever," I cried.
Mom smoothed back my hair, wiped away my tears and told me that circumstances change and people change. She explained that one of the greatest things friends can do is to give each other a chance to grow, to change and to develop into all God wants each of them to be. And sometimes, she said, that would mean that friends would choose to spend time with other people.
She went on to say that I needed to forgive Pam for hurting me and that I could express that forgiveness by giving her a May Day basket.
It was a hard decision, but I decided to give Pam a basket. I made an extra special basket of flowers with lots of yellow because that was Pam's favorite color. I asked my two sisters to help me deliver my basket of forgiveness. As we watched from our hiding place, Pam scooped up the flowers, pressed her face into them and said loudly enough for us to hear, "Thank you, Susie, I hoped you wouldn't forget me!"
That day, I made a decision that changed my life: I decided to hold my friends tightly in my heart, but loosely in my expectations of them, allowing them space to grow and to change—with or without me.
Sofia (Bulgaria), April 25 (Saturday):TV interview HH Sri Sri Ravi Shankar. Channel 1: Are bad thoughts harmful? HH Sri Sri Ravi Shankar: Only if you act on them. Bad thoughts, and good thoughts come and go. Don’t become attached to them. If you try, and resist bad thoughts they will persist. Just let them be.
Jac, Based on what you've written on May 4, i guess filling in the blank for you would be "I feel...nostalgic." Reason could be that you are now more in a state of awareness compared to then.
During that time..... "Sometimes we are so busy adding up our troubles that we forger to count our blessings."
If you think that you have been wronged.....please..... "Write the bad things that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble." Arabic parable.
In conjunction with Wesak Day...... "We are what we think. All that we are arises from our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world." Buddha.
Let's not forget..... Life isn't about what happens to you, it's about how you handle what happens.- by Nicholas Evans
Cheers for the new born!!!
ReplyDeletewelcome to the virtual world. happy blogging and let's share and learn from each others.
ReplyDeleteHello back
ReplyDeleteThank you and shall write more about "only your thought can upset you"when i'm free.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the opening of your new blog.
ReplyDeleteWaiting for "thoughts to upset me" :-)
"Start by doing what's necessary;
then do what's possible;
and suddenly you are doing the impossible". --St. Francis of Assisi
Way to go, Jac!
Years passed by, if I’m not mistaken beginning of year 2006, many thoughts easily upset me. My question is why now? Why at the age of 47? I suppose to be wiser at this age. The upset effects my emotion; withdrawal, self blame, self-pity, blames people, sick, depressed, conflict with friends, and my daily life upside-down. Most of the things I did were wrong… Emotion has destroyed my objectivity, and, failing to see clearly, I have made terrible errors of judgment………..
ReplyDeleteThat time I realized what is going on, I wanted to correct the whole situation but I keeping make a mistake. I look like bad women (this is how I feel that moment). Everyone, especially my closet friends are so fascinated with what went wrong with me and I supposed they fail to see what is going wrong with me. Some closet friends, which I have conflict that time give way to resolve the conflict. They accepted me as I am that time with a big questionnaire. Thank you my dear friends. Some friends fail to accept because I’m new to them. I should thank this group of friends because they make me think and find out what causes the changes.
Dear friends, can anybody recall some of the incidents which I missed at this moment. Your inputs are welcome and I’m open for any ideas. That all I can recall for the moment. I should continue from time to time and make sure the flow of past experiences is smoothly present.
My main intention writing about my last three years “hard time” and scary experiences is mainly for sharing. I don’t mean to find any fault of my friends; this is only my own experiences. I suppose presently I’m quite “ ……….. “, Poh Choo, help me to fill in the blank. The clear mind makes me wanted to share to my dearest friends.
Bye2. Pardon me if I used wrong terms, words and worst part is my grammar. I’m still learning to write in English. Kalau Bahasa Malaysia “sap sap sui lah”.
Jac
everyone learn from mistake and thank God, the hardship make us stronger and even better man. learning is a life long process, it will end by the day you were 6 foot under the earth. why scare to make mistake and stop yourself from growing to be wiser? accepting everything with open mind and open arms, will bear you fruit of true friendships and knowledge. i am not wise as Solomon but i am willing to share what i had learned too. those who walked along with you through the bad and good times are those that you should appreciate in your heart, they are the true angels revolving you. let the passed experiences be a mirror for yourself to prevent the future occurrence of same history.
ReplyDeletei am using the blog to express my emotion and thoughts, to share my feeling and excitement of life with those i treasured. in directly i can improve my English as well, no one borne perfect, right? it is a one stone two birds strategy.
sometimes things are nice to hear but not to say, and blogging is one of the best channel to convey the message to those we love and care but we dare not speak the truth, worrying that the saying will offense the feeling. we try not to prejudice anyone and anything, but letting others to flow with our wave of emotion's tide is a good way to let others' comprehend what is playing in our mind regarding certain issues that we were not expressly dictate to others at any material time.
as i said before in my entries, only after you went through the trough, then you will appreciate the beauty of crest. the troubles we went through before enable us to relish and savor what we have at the moment and treasure everything and everyone we having now, isn't it great?
history should be treated as a lesson, not a fetter. it is useless to chain or lock or punish yourself for what you had done. that is no way we can return the passed time. time is not a tape, cannot be rewind or forward. let the past be the cornerstone to build the foundation for future, what you reap is what you sow, just as you dictated to me before, "only your thought can upset you", contrary, isn't it means "only your thought can uphold you" as well? positive thinking will build a positive characteristics and positive result, and vice versa.
hopefully i can learn a rope from you through your blog, and let's fill in the blank with each others' support and courage.
This is message from Saw Hoon, she is learning how to post comment in my blog..keep learning. Marcusnhl, being an IT expert, can you give her some tips.
ReplyDeleteMay Basket
From Chicken Soup for the Soul: Moms Know Best
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs....
Cor. 13:4-5
"Hey, do you know what? Today is May Day!" my sister announced. "Do you remember the May Day baskets we used to make with colored paper and paste?"
Childhood memories and warm feelings engulfed me as I recalled that my sisters and I would run around our neighborhood delivering the not-so-perfect baskets brimming with spring flowers. We would place the handmade treasures on a doorstep, knock on the door, then scurry away as fast as our legs could carry us. It was delightful to peer around a bush and watch our friends open their doors and pick up the colorful gift, wondering who had left it out for them.
I distinctly remember the May Day of the year that I was in fifth grade. That year I was faced with a challenge involving one of my dearest friends. She lived right across the road from our family, and we had walked together to school nearly every day since first grade.
Pam was a year older than I, and her interests were starting to change from the interests that we had shared together. A new family had recently moved into our small town, and Pam was spending more and more time at their house. I felt hurt and left out.
When my mother asked me if I was going to take a May Day basket to Pam's house, I responded angrily, "Absolutely not!" My mom stopped what she was doing, knelt down and held me in her arms. She told me not to worry, that I would have many other friends throughout my lifetime.
"But Pam was my very best friend ever," I cried.
Mom smoothed back my hair, wiped away my tears and told me that circumstances change and people change. She explained that one of the greatest things friends can do is to give each other a chance to grow, to change and to develop into all God wants each of them to be. And sometimes, she said, that would mean that friends would choose to spend time with other people.
She went on to say that I needed to forgive Pam for hurting me and that I could express that forgiveness by giving her a May Day basket.
It was a hard decision, but I decided to give Pam a basket. I made an extra special basket of flowers with lots of yellow because that was Pam's favorite color. I asked my two sisters to help me deliver my basket of forgiveness. As we watched from our hiding place, Pam scooped up the flowers, pressed her face into them and said loudly enough for us to hear, "Thank you, Susie, I hoped you wouldn't forget me!"
That day, I made a decision that changed my life: I decided to hold my friends tightly in my heart, but loosely in my expectations of them, allowing them space to grow and to change—with or without me.
Message from Chiew Yen (with her permission):
ReplyDelete緣(一則佛教故事)
從前有個書生,和未婚妻約好在某年某月某日結婚.
到那一天,未婚妻卻嫁給了別人.
書生受此打擊,一病不起 .
家人用盡各種辦法都無能為力,眼看奄奄一息.
這時,路過一游方僧人,得知情況,決定點化一下他.
僧人到他床前,從懷裡摸出一面鏡子叫書生看.
書生看到茫茫大海,
一名遇害的女子一絲不掛地躺在海灘上.
路過一人,看一眼,搖搖頭,走了....
又路過一人,將衣服脫下,給女屍蓋上,走了....
再路過一人,過去,挖個坑,
小心翼翼把屍體掩埋了............
疑惑間,畫面切換.書生看到自己的未婚妻 .
洞房花燭,被她丈夫掀起蓋頭的瞬間
書生不明所以.
僧人解釋道,那具海灘上的女屍,就是你未婚妻的前世.
你是第2個路過的人,曾給過他一件衣服.
她今生和你相戀,只為還你一個情.
但是她最終要報答一生一世的人 ,
是最後那個把她掩埋的人 ,
那人就是他現在的丈夫.
書生大悟,唰地從床上坐起,病癒 !
幾年前,初戀的愛人去世時,我痛不欲生.
有朋友就找來這故事開導我,
讓我釋懷不少.也許,她來到這個世界上,
就是為了還我一片情吧 .
她做完了她想做的事,就走了.以後,
我都用這個故事開導身邊的朋友.
緣這個東西,是最不可思議的.
電影"不見不散"的主題歌這樣唱道"
這世界說大就大,說小就小.
就算是我們今生的約定,也要用一生去尋找.
我們都在參加一場盛大的化裝舞會,
熙熙攘攘的人群裡,我們尋覓著,
渴望著....那指間,相觸時被電擊的感覺.
那一刻,面具摘下了,顯現出真實的面目.
這之前, 我們都惶惑著 ,
惶惑得甚至不知道自己需要的究竟是什麼.
直到你遇到一個人,才恍然間了解了自己.
真正想要的,並非當初以為的.
Sofia (Bulgaria), April 25 (Saturday):TV interview HH Sri Sri Ravi Shankar.
ReplyDeleteChannel 1: Are bad thoughts harmful?
HH Sri Sri Ravi Shankar: Only if you act on them. Bad thoughts, and good thoughts come and go. Don’t become attached to them. If you try, and resist bad thoughts they will persist. Just let them be.
Jacq:
ReplyDeletewhy don't you post the articles in separated new entry? it is more easier to see and read, instead of posting them in Comment.
Who is Saw Hoon?
cheers.
Jac,
ReplyDeleteBased on what you've written on May 4, i guess filling in the blank for you would be "I feel...nostalgic." Reason could be that you are now more in a state of awareness compared to then.
During that time.....
"Sometimes we are so busy adding up our troubles that we forger to count our blessings."
If you think that you have been wronged.....please.....
"Write the bad things that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble." Arabic parable.
In conjunction with Wesak Day......
"We are what we think. All that we are arises from our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world." Buddha.
Let's not forget.....
Life isn't about what happens to you, it's about how you handle what happens.- by Nicholas Evans
Take care.